The Monday before last, my Uncle Bob fastened his helmet, activated the
GPS on his watch and clipped his shoes into the pedals of his bike. It was a
normal weekday morning ride, something he did consistently, Monday through
Friday, typically logging 10-12 miles through the pine and spruce covered hills
of eastern Washington. Unbeknownst to him, this would be his last ride. A young
man, on his way home from the night shift, fell asleep at the wheel, striking
my uncle at 45 miles per hour. Early the next morning, taken off life support,
his heart stopped beating.
Each morning, my uncle wrote in a journal, jotting down what
he had read in his Bible and what God was teaching him. The morning of his
accident was no different. He sat in his chair, no doubt with a cup of coffee,
and read through 1 Samuel 1-3, journaling while he did so. This portion of
scripture records the story of Hannah, a woman in deep pain who
chose to trust the Lord despite her inability to understand His ways. In her
prayer she says, “The Lord brings death and makes alive; he brings down to the
grave and raises up.” It seems poignant that these were among the last words my
uncle read shortly before his own time on earth was over.
My uncle loved music-all different
kinds-but particularly worship music. The playlist on his phone showed the last
song he had enjoyed that morning: “Forever Reign”. The lyrics go something like
this; “You are life, You are life. In You, death has lost its sting. I’m
running to your arms, in your presence, I’m made whole.” During the memorial
celebration we sang this song together, changing the lyrics to “I’m riding
to your arms”. There wasn’t a dry eye in the place as we imagined Bob literally
riding to the arms of his Savior.
When tragedy strikes, when something happens that we just
cannot comprehend, we as humans have two responses. We either become bitter and
angry at the God we cannot understand, or we cling to Him despite our lack of understanding. In the story of Hannah, we see the second response. We see a woman
so troubled, that she wept much before the Lord “in bitterness of soul”, with
prayers so fervent that the worshippers among her assumed she was drunk. We see a woman desperate for a miracle; eventually God did give her what she
asked. But in the interim (the place where many of us live), she chose to trust
the Lord, knowing His ways were higher than hers. She did not mask or deny her anguish, she opened her heart before the Lord, pouring out her pain, her doubt, her
confusion and her anger to Him, and trusting Him along the way. Later in life, the Lord
brought so much beauty from what she suffered.
We are suffering. We do not understand. We may never understand this side of heaven. But, we bring our pain to the Lord, knowing that He promises to make beauty from ashes. Knowing that we grieve in hope and with confident expectation of the day we will see Bob again.
We are suffering. We do not understand. We may never understand this side of heaven. But, we bring our pain to the Lord, knowing that He promises to make beauty from ashes. Knowing that we grieve in hope and with confident expectation of the day we will see Bob again.
“He raises the poor from the dust and lifts
the needy from the ash
heap.”
1 Samuel 2:8
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Enjoying time at the Coeur d'alene Resort |
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Uncle Bob and me |
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He loved camping! And Rosie! |
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Supporting his son, John, during a race |
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Doing what he loved with his brother-in-law, Jim |
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Fun times with the grandkids |
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Bob and Debi |
We love you, Uncle Bob. |